Tsukki, you didn't just love him, you idolized him. People regularly ignore more for less. And you were a child! Kids don't think that deeply about anything!

[Suga's clutching his own knees white-knuckle tight to keep from reaching out before it's welcome. He's somehow triggered what might be a massive breakthrough and he's not blowing it now.]

You were done wrong. No matter how much your brother loves you and wants to take it back, he still did you wrong. You don't have to deny that to move past it, and you shouldn't.